Publishing my book is an exciting achievement, but admittedly, I’m feeling both tender and vulnerable.
I wasn’t sure I could write this book. It called to me for twelve years before I took it on. Even then, writing it was an arduous process that required numerous breaks to grieve and recalibrate. I hired a coach/editor - someone who was intuitive and wise; she encouraged me toward each next step and understood when self-care was the priority.
Even though I was attentive to my emotional self in the process, the writing, organizing, and editing were re-traumatizing. EMDR and somatic experiencing have, once again, become dear friends.
As much as I wanted to gift others with a story that would support their journey, my writing took me to an emotional edge. So, in addition to writing, there’s been the equally important task of listening to my body and my emotions and taking the necessary steps to offer myself great care.
I’ve invested large amounts of energy, time and heart to write my story. Knowing what was required of me to get this book into its final form, I want to send it into the world with my full energy and blessing behind it. This cover was not the top choice of my publisher; it was an image I chose. Every time I look at this image, it reminds me that lightness and joy arise from dark places, that the natural world is fertile and nurturing, and that all life is both tender and resilient. These are messages that, perhaps, my readers will never know. Feeling congruent with this image encourages me in moments like this when I’m being asked to step away from my safe writing nook and stand fully behind my message.
I hold deep gratitude for your support as I follow my heart calling ~