My unraveling doll now has a face. She still has no hair; in fact, the back of her head reveals an exposed styrofoam egg. She tells me she’s complete. It’s a good message for me – helpful to be reminded that this moment holds our ‘completeness.’ There are still layers to peel away revealing more of our hidden beauty, still parts we’d like to change or embellish and sometimes this moment doesn’t look ‘pretty.’
I’ve been working on a relationship lately that hasn’t looked pretty; the holidays will sometimes bring such things to the forefront. Examining this more deeply offered me some wonderful teachings about how to accept this moment as it is, how to appreciate my present experience and how to stay out of ‘story.’
We can easily manufacture a script about how things went down. It’ll be different for all concerned and it will never contain much truth. Such stories are created in our head. With focus there, we’re bound to experience more agitation. We get closest to the truth when we can focus on how we feel in the moment, let it flow through us and if hearts stay open, the greatest truth is revealed - that of love.
My chest was aching last week – excruciatingly so. My children had been sick with chest colds, so it crossed my mind that I could be getting sick. However, I took the time to do a Healing Touch session with myself. This was also a time to check in with my body and ask what it needed. I got a clear message that this wasn’t about contracting a cold; rather, it was time to heal a very old heart wound. Synchronistically, I had scheduled a meeting with a friend to read my Akashic record. Had it been the dentist, I would have canceled it so I could rest, but I arrived at the appointment knowing that it would offer me deep healing.
The session was emotionally riveting and brought to my awareness some of the beliefs I’ve set up for myself that don’t serve me. At the same time, it offered me the opportunity to do some ceremony around letting go of how I’ve done this particular relationship, accepting it as it is and loving where I am in it. My chest pains passed with the act of ceremony.
In many ways, I feel complete, though the back of my head may be exposed and I have yet to see the vibrant colors pulsing in my chest. Now is a good place to be and I’m full knowing myself in this complete ‘now’ moment.