One of the questions that’s challenged me over the years is WHY I was raped – not in the sense of “why me?!” but rather, how was it that I invited this incident into my life. My studies of Science of Mind and Law of Attraction have made me look very closely at what was happening in my life at age 26 that would have made me resonate with this tragedy. The most plausible explanation that I’ve explored is that I signed up for this when I came here, but even this hasn’t completely satisfied me.
The question came up again in relation to issues of trust, specifically, trusting myself and my inner guidance. I’ve known for some time that I clearly got the message that day not to go down that road to where I was raped, but I went anyway. It hasn’t intuitively resonated with me that I would ignore what now seem to be such clear messages to avoid this path.
As Spirit would have it, I was exploring this with my women’s circle recently and shared the happenings of that morning I was raped: how I sat at breakfast thinking about my good friend Ted and how much I admired his deep faith, how I set out with an intent to ride where Ted and I had ridden just a few weeks earlier, how I was clear that I was seeking what I perceived Ted had – strong faith, and how that search felt so connected with my intent to ride that path on that morning.
I realized as I shared these details that I had a much higher purpose that day, one that has delivered me to this place where my faith is strong. I had set an intent that morning – to find my faith – and even the intuitive warning signals were not going to stop me from pursuing this journey.
I answered my question with some sweet memories. Interestingly, Ted left me a message on my voice mail that day.
